Tuesday, 4 December 2012

Sometimes I Feel…

Hey guys this is Umar with my new blog post about ‘Sometimes what I feel’. Sometimes I feel a little alone and just want to runaway. Sometimes I feel like I can never imagine what life can do with me. I feel like I am drowning in the depth of the oceans of faces and I hear only mocking smiles. Sometimes my plans often go unfulfilled but I still hope something positive will happen. Sometimes I feel like my both hands are shaking and I am breaking through the waves but no one there to save me not even myself. I feel like I am wasting my life to do what I want to do and I am still on it. Sometimes I feel that I believe people a lot but still they think I am pretending and making up. Sometimes goodbyes are not enough to take over the situations. Sometimes I never get what I deserve. Sometimes I feel like I am getting far away from everyone and feeling more comfortable in darkness. Sometimes I feel I am losing everything what I've got because I believe it does not belong to me. Sometimes I feel like a severe pain in the back of my head and none of the medicine will be the cure. Sometimes I feel so lost and feel like I am burning inside that even hurricanes and tsunamis cannot snuff out. Sometimes I feel like there is a gale wandering in my mind which executed all my good memories. Sometimes I feel like I am crumbling down and the memories wobble apart from my body and mind. I don’t know how to overcome these dark memories which try to swallow me and I cannot pretend that It will be. I also have colored dreams but those are being eradicated by unheard voices. All these years I feel like my time never came. Sometimes I feel like confidence is everything but I know I cannot even convince myself at all. Sometimes I feel like everyone is starring me I haven’t got a word to say. Sometimes it’s hard to find true relationships than to act upon. Sometimes things are not as they seem to be. Sometimes I am afraid of the day of reckoning. I learnt from my experience that you can judge a person by making some sort of relations with him/her and the very next time you will be more careful about what just happened with you in past but actually next time situation will be different, person will be different and obviously feelings will be different ,Indeed.